It's interesting, every year I used to be really into making plans and thinking and writing about goals and stuff. I'm not a fan of "resolutions" because those just don't seem to work out for most people that I've talked to
Yeah no totally
Jeffrey wrote:I dunno, I've been so into goals and attainment for so long and improving and all that jazz, but it's just a real pain. So much pressure there. I've been letting go of wanting to change things more lately, and it just feels nice.
Being able to make that transition from "Life has to be different for me to be happy." to "I can enjoy life and just relax NOW" is HUGE.
Jeffrey wrote:I'd rather just sit on my butt and watch light-hearted movies all day. For a long time I felt that was somehow bad,
Man, rock on. Your path is so similar to mine here...
Jeffrey wrote:and that I wasn't fullfilling my purpose and making a contribution to the world and stuff by doing that, that just seems like so much work.
I still entertain delusions of grandeur, but a part of me also just really enjoys the stupid, simple, silly little ordinary things.
Yeah, it almost seems like the two are somehow diametrically opposed, right? and so we'll swing from one side of the pendulum to the other. Work and play are seen to be opposites.
You know what's really interesting? It seems that when we can just relax and enjoy the stupid, simple, silly little ordinary things as you put it, that becomes tremendously POWERFUL.
You said before that making a contribution to the world can seem like so much work and I agree, so long as it's not tied to this silly, simple, fun, playful, relaxed, light-hearted energy.
When it's silly and simple, it winds up being whatever you do for fun, whether it's play the piano, paint a painting, write a book, go for a run... it's like you naturally revert back to what you're naturally inclined towards and give your natural gifts.
The whole sitting on your butt and watching fun movies dealio seems to be an important and necessary part of the process, but it doesn't seem to be the final goal. This stage is about stepping out of obligation and into freedom.
Eventually it seems this freedom wants to express itself in the world in its own unique way, but this energy doesn't stem from ego. It's from something else entirely.
There's this Jesus quote that's suddenly starting to become very fitting:
"If you bring forth what is within you, what you bring forth will save you. If you do not bring forth what is within you, what you do not bring forth will destroy you."
It seems that eventually we do find that we are here to give our gifts to the world. We are here to play the unique part in creation that we are meant to play, and I mean PLAY!
Those of us who feel obligated to do certain things may swing to the opposite extreme and just relax and do nothing. It's a part of the process and we gotta go through it. It helps us find our freedom and well-being in joy rather than our security in what we feel obligated to do.
I know how popular the "do nothing" idea can be in spiritual circles, but there also seems to be this creative energy that wants to flow through us, to give our gifts, and to serve the world.
So yeah, many stages to the process, of which the "sit around and watch fun movies" is an amazing part. I'm so happy to hear you're enjoying this part of the journey. If you find some great movies, let me know!