by Eric » Wed Aug 05, 2009 6:47 pm
Experiences in the past several weeks have been very interesting.
Like you wrote, what once seemed real just... doesn't anymore.
A recurring thought that pops up after I awake from night sleep or naps is almost always some variation of "Waking up from one dream and into another".
Everything now flows from one moment to the next absolutely as it should. When it's now to eat, I eat. When it's now to sleep, I sleep. Now to train, train. Now to breathe, breathe. There's nothing out of place.
I can almost "see" the energy and emptiness in everything now. You know how 99.99999% of what we think is solid is actually empty space? I'm almost "seeing" (not quite the correct word) that now all the time and everywhere.The only thing I can describe this as, though, is reality coming apart at the seams. This comes and goes, so to speak, and the question always arises "Who is the one who experiences reality as whole and valid, and who is the one who experiences reality as coming apart?"
Spiritual Autolysis a la Jed McKenna has helped extensively with being able to bring these thoughts and experiences to paper. The same process of "Writing down what's true until you know" is the same thing that Adyashanti did when he was still known as Stephen Gray. Works for me. Every story that comes to mind about "me" or anything that once seemed separate from that, now gets instantly and non-judgmentally questioned.
People are endlessly fascinating now, too. They're much easier to hang out with, have fun with, play with, and simultaneously extremely difficult to take seriously. When people mention "problems" or "successes" it's like their reading from the script of a soap opera.
Stories are very interesting, too, whether they're classified as fiction or non-fiction. Every story is my story now, every character is me, everyone's wins and losses, victories and struggles, waxes and wanes, triumphs and tribulations, are mine. I created them; I am 100% responsible for them.
There's a lot of laughter in this space, too. I laugh all of the time about everything and nothing.
The one key difference I see between what this post says and what I'm experiencing, though, is that this post seems to explicitly state "Nothing in this world is real", whereas for me it's more of a constant "I don't know whether this is real or not". There's no definitive answer one way or the other, and that's very, very cool. It's extremely peaceful, and... liberating isn't the correct word, but it's the closest that makes sense. One is unbound, free to move anywhere or do anything.
It's one thing to read a story like this. It's quite another to have it as your continuous reality. Awesome stuff, Ariel.
