With reference to how to cope in the wilderness, I know you are asking Ariel but I'll put in my pennies worth as well. Really feel into where
feels right for you. Ask other 'spiritual' people for ideas but go where is right for YOU, not them. For me I had intended going up into the mountains but then found a Maori 'tapu' site on top of a cliff overlooking the ocean. Another tip is listen to other's ideas on how to do it but do it how YOU want to. I let go of every one of other people's suggestions. (And of course you must
let go of mine too!
Perhaps the main one I let go of was that of intending to 'meditate' whilst there. As it was, my mind did what it needed to and maybe it was meditating but not in any formal sense. Basically I allowed the real ME to guide me to a very succesful (dare I use that word?
) conclusion. Why label it as a 'meditation retreat'? That only restricts the possibility of the 'un-known' to enter which, in my experience, is what brings about change.
For example, when you look for your ego, you don't find it. It would be pretty awful if you succeeded in finding it.
Oh boy - do you have a few hours for me to demolish this statement????
Unwittingly, I think, you have used a word which totally describes my feelings around my ego. I am in awe of it. It is awe-full which is the derivation of the word awful which somehow has lost it's original meaning. Why deny my ego? Why try to get rid of it? Why not recognise it for what it is as a very valid part of Who I Am. I have found it to be this incredible life force which enables me, at the age of 64 to still virtually run up mountains, dance the night away and live life to the full the way I never did when denying my ego! It also frees me up to write nice things about myself!
Oh - here's something I have observed over the years - when I use the word 'you' when I am really talking about myself, I am denying a part of myself by trying to disassociate from what I am writing. I now know that it was my own fear of owning my true self (including my ego) which made me do it. I might start off using "I" but then changed to "you" once the fear started kicking in.
You tried to answer my words by describing your experiences and wisdom around the subject. Why then did you use the word 'you' most of the way through. The fact is that what you said is your
truth, not mine
so why try and foist it off onto me? Why not just say "I" instead of "you"
but in my practice I've found that you succeed by failing.
(Note the shift from 'I' to "you" when failing is mentioned.)
Actually I was never in your practice so how could I fail?
I have found that by taking ownership of my reality I can feel the difference. Try it, it might
work for you too!
You did ask for tips on going out into the wilderness. I see everything I have written here as some tips from my experiences of venturing forth into my
wilderness, both external and internal.
They may help you, maybe not - only you will know. So be it.
"I do what I can do, and I don't waste my energy trying to do the things I can't do" River