Things Don’t Make Sense

Category Enlightenment, Non-duality, Surrender

About a month back I was driving home and suddenly I realized I had no idea what on earth was going on.

The cars in front of me don’t exist, so what is happening?

Distance doesn’t exist, so where am I going?

I don’t exist, so who is driving?

It wasn’t some sort of philosophic concept that these things don’t exist, but a spontaneous realization that just appeared within consciousness, as if one just saw through the smoke and mirrors, seeing nothing on the other side.

It feels like the mind itself is unraveling.

This physical world doesn’t seem to make any sense. Only silence does.

Memory is starting to not function very well, and I used to have a great memory. It’s like a return to purity without a lifetime’s worth of collected baggage. What’s necessary in the moment is always provided. Always. The past isn’t necessary and so the fact that it’s falling away is really of no concern.

Illusion is being stripped away. There’s still some mental capacity happening, but much of what’s left of it is just this state of confusion and desire to figure things out.

However, it’s nothing to figure out and all that can be done is to let go.

Let go of knowing, of trying to know, of desiring to know in the first place.

Abide in the silence of not knowing, of purely beingness itself.

Rest in the mystery.

Surrender to Life.

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10 Responses to “Things Don’t Make Sense”

Kacie said:

Ariel,

My memory has begun to fade away as well. I find it comforting, although it used to concern me. It’s so much easier to be, right here, right now, without the past intruding.
It’s peaceful.
Jonathan said:

i felt this way today on a long drive, it felt like i was really just aware of all my desires to want all these things, and then their was a gap out of just silence, like something arose out of this awareness that made it just feel okay, perfect. then there were thoughts of giving in to faith and trust to something anything i can explain. I want to say God is the closest thing, but it’s not a man seperate from me, it was like divine.

it was a glimpse, and some days i see lots of glimpses, but then the chatter comes in and i get lost in identification, until another breath hits me. i’m so scared of it all though, scared of losing myself in to the unknown. i read all these things, and my mind starts racing, then a glimpse again. utter madness and ups and downs.

but i feel something more, when there is just a tuning it in for me it seems. like a peace that is just there, after i felt so overwhelmed, i can’t explain it at all. i really can’t.

i feel this feeling of being scared of being crazy and losing my mind, but i just want to trust it.

Ariel Bravy Reply:
December 22nd, 2008 at 2:02 am
yeah, “scared of losing myself in to the unknown”

Fear of the death. It’s the main thing to surrender on this path… easier said than done, isn’t it?
Jarrod - Warrior Development said:

An interesting exercise I bumped into again recently.

Take both your hands, block your ears with your thumbs, index fingers over the eyes, middle fingers blocking the nose and little fingers sealing the mouth.

Blocking a bunch of input has effect even if it is only briefly.

Jarrod – Warrior Developments last blog post..Progressing Everyday: Do Something

Ariel Bravy Reply:
December 22nd, 2008 at 6:10 am
Jarrod, would the idea be something similar to the floatation tank Joe Rogan talked about?

Jasper Reply:
December 27th, 2008 at 11:03 am
This (advanced) exercise is mentioned in the chinese book of I-ching, and was taught by Dr. George King as part of a well-balanced system of yoga breathing.

To maximize its effects, you can hold the breath inside, while doing it.
Dont overdo this one, I experienced dizziness, as the mind lost grip of the physical reality.

Check out Dr. Kings book: “Realize you inner potential”, if you like. It contains alot of other great exercises besides the breathings.

Be well!
Jarrod - Warrior Development said:

Sure in principle, but this is even lower tech and can be done anywhere.
Davidya said:

Hi Ariel
I’ve found events simply make less of an impression, especially if there is no ‘me’ there to grasp. Thus, few memories. It’s kind of a transition though. What needs to be remembered will be but in the meantime, we may find it’s more about what falls away. What used to be important, what should be remembered…

Davidyas last blog post..What is Unique?

Ariel Bravy Reply:
December 25th, 2008 at 4:10 am
Exactly, Davidya. Have you noticed that events almost feel less important as well? It seems there’s a sort of equalization process that happens, where nothing is judged as better or worse and everything is equally appreciated as is.
Davidya said:

Yes. It’s amazing what has lost importance. Even things I once thought part of my purpose and raison d’etre. As the illusion or sense of the world as a stage play became prominent, little then had a grip.

Now, as oneness absorbs everything, thats changing. The world becomes real again but a completely different real. More like Marie speaks of in her article linked on the other post.

Davidyas last blog post..What is Unique?

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