I’m not big into going clubbing, but I am finding that it provides a tremendous opportunity, not only for spiritual growth, but as an excellent mirror for yourself to see how you respond to human egos.
We could say the human ego is akin to your carnal mind, your animalistic urges, your most primal desires. There’s certainly nothing wrong with these energies. Spiritual growth is not about repressing or denying these energies, but rather choosing to raise your energy up to higher levels so that you are fully experiencing life from all seven chakras. You raise your kundalini up to your crown while still remaining rooted. You don’t disconnect from your lower chakras, nor do you place more value on “higher” energies.
That said, it seems the club scene is primarily geared towards the lower three chakras of money, sex, and power. It’s essentially a big mating game.
Women get their sense of worthiness on external validation, on how many guys buy them drinks or try to pick them up. Men are judged according to how well they can seduce women and how many phone numbers they can accumulate or the number of women they sleep with.
It’s essentially a big ego game and I’m finding that I now see straight through the egoic masks people wear and what I see is amazing.
First off, I abide in the energy field of unconditional love. Experientially this is not what most people would expect. Notice the way I phrased the statement, “I abide in the energy field of unconditional love.” I am not the one loving anyone else. It’s simply a field of consciousness that is tapped into, accessed via an open heart. I am simply a medium allowing the energy to flow through me.
I feel love towards all living beings, towards all of life. It is an impersonal energy, much like gravity. Gravity doesn’t care if you’re a “good” person or “bad” person. Its energy works nonetheless.
Unconditional love has no restrictions upon who it flows to, when it starts, when it stops, or anything else. No limitations. There is nothing that needs to be done to somehow earn or deserve this love. Simultaneously, nothing could possibly be done to stop this flow of love. I am not the one doing it. I am more of an open door allowing the energy of love to flow through me.
Going back to my experiences with clubs, I start to automatically befriend everybody… bouncers, bartenders, men, women, friends, strangers, attractive, bitchy… It truly doesn’t matter. It literally feels as if I’m radiating energy towards others.
What I see and feel is vastly different from what I used to feel, very different from what most people likely feel.
I see straight through human egos. Looking people in the eye, I feel their souls as if it were my own. Energetically we merge. I feel the underlying feelings beneath the external masks people wear.
For example, bouncers generally have this “tough guy” image they put on. Guys sitting along the walls often feel very scared an insecure. Many women are desperately craving the attention and validation. Alpha males fighting for dominance are covering up an underlying sense of inferiority. (These are in no way hard fast rules. Of course there are exceptions. These is more like rules of thumb.)
Every ego is designed to somehow cover insecurity. People are afraid to open up and be genuine with one another, to be vulnerable. At the very core of these insecurities is genuine fear.
Generally this fear can be broken down into one of three fears:
1) Fear of disapproval
2) Fear of lacking control
3) Fear of one’s very survival
All these fears are based on fear of death.
Yet underneath all this, at the very core, is Love. Pure, untouched, heartfelt, genuine love.
This is what I see and play with when I interact with people. The love in me sees the love in them. This is who they really are. Really.
Every human is seen as equally worthy. Superiority and inferiority are completely outside of this reality. In this state of consciousness, they simply do not exist.
I see egoic activity as a sort of cosmic joke and all inner suffering as totally bypassable, yet it feels so real when people are in the grips of it.
There was this movie called Splash starring Tom Hanks and in the movie he meets a mermaid. He takes her in and back at his place she starts watching TV and a film comes on. A person dies in the movie and the mermaid starts crying.
Tom Hanks’ character comes in and asks her why she’s crying. He then explains that the character didn’t really die. It’s just a movie on the screen.
All inner struggle and fear is exactly the same way. It’s not real despite all looks and appearances. In fact, instead of just affecting your visual and auditory senses like a movie does, real life can affect all five senses, making it feel even MORE real!
Just like when watching TV, however, you are not the one in the movie and doing this or that. You are the one watching, observing, witnessing.
This is your true nature. The silent witness.
This is what I see in the world. A constant awareness of physical reality without any sense of attachment.
This state is very natural. Perhaps not “normal” given that most people today on this planet are still locked in the jaws of the ego. That’s okay. That state is normal. The state of non-attachment and unconditional love, that is your natural state.
It doesn’t not have to be learned. It is your true nature. All that’s necessary is to let go of the illusions clouding up your own inner truths, clogging your intuitive connection to your inner knowingness.
Learn about the ego and its numerous tricks to get you to identify with it.
Allow yourself to simply watch the ego. Watch the thoughts in your head. Notice what they say and what they tell you.
Notice you are the one who is watching the mind, not the thinker actually thinking the thoughts. The thinkingness is not you. It happens all on its own.
By simply watching the mind without identifying with it, that is, by simply remaining in a state of conscious awareness and noticing your thoughts and emotions without attaching a sense of “me” to them, they will automatically start to let go of their grip on you.
Progressively as you continue this practice, fears will start to subside. Worries and anxieties are released.
The clouds blocking your own inner light will dissolve and all that’s left is your very essence: pure, radiant, unconditional love.
It’s a state that’s achieved by letting go of what’s blocking it, not by striving towards it.
Let go of all resistances to Love.
Then love and do as you will.