Not that I withdrew completely. I only said or did what seemed to be required in the moment and I let go and let the cirumstances direct me in that regard. I was worried that I would go as far as to withdraw too much for a while though. Then I just surrendered and trusted that whatever I was drawn to do, or not drawn to do, was the right path (which my friend reminded me of!). That seemed to help immensely and that’s how I’ve continued to go about this living business!

I do have to remind myself now and again also, that everything is as it must be. Because lately I’ve been a little bit caught up in wanting to avoid negativity altoghether, but mostly in terms of my office environment. I can face whatever arises anywhere else, but I feel like I had strived to be in a positive work environment because I know that’s where I spend most of my life, and now there’s a negative influence there and I just want it not to be there! But I do realize that it’s presence is helping me to face further resistance within and release it.

I have been crying a lot lately, like I did before my first awakening experience, and I feel like I’m saying goodbye to everything I’ve been familiar with, the whole illusion. I’m okay with the crying. I’m okay with letting it all dissolve. I’m okay with the dissolution of “me”, even if that is at a physical level.

I had the experience last night of not identifying with form in the mirror. I viewed this form as a product of creation (a beautiful creature) and I cried with compassion for the suffering that it seemingly needlessly put itself through in the illusion before awakening. It was like there was the form, the ego mourning itself, and the silent Self at a distance witnessing both.

Afterwards, I looked at my shadow and felt that I had just viewed my body in the same way. I knew that it moved when “I” moved, but it wasn’t me. Synchronistically, I watched a video on your site today that quoted “this universe is a shadow”!

Love and Joy to you for being on my path!

There does seem to be a need for balance between total disassociation from the world and pretending to be an individual. There’s stories of some enlightened people who so completely let go of the need for survival of the body that they’d just lay around and let bugs crawl all over them.

So yes, balance is key.

I had several discussions about my drive and spirituality to get clearer about this topic myself.

I heart a podcast from Bill Harris where he said he should have cared about losing his job, when he came in contact with The Now. That is how he sees it now.
Also Adyashanti gave the advise to go along with the live we had before Awakening, just to not fall so much down, that the survival instinct is triggered, which is not really helpful then

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“a more accurate way to describe it would be that they simply dont take any action that is going to drain them”

That’s a great way of looking at it!

Yeah man, I’ve been experiencing the same type of letting go. It’s like all the activities that were driven by the ego fall away. All thats left are the activites that come from our true essence; those that we love and that enliven us.

What many people fear when the notion of ‘letting go’ comes up is that they will no longer take any action, when a more accurate way to describe it would be that they simply dont take any action that is going to drain them….which is actually a very more fulfilling way to live.

The way you describe it here is a very straight forward and easy to understand so thanks man

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