In the Midst of a Kundalini Awakening

Okay, so I feel like I’m going a little crazy now.

Some of what I’m gonna write about here I’ve written posts about but didn’t feel like publishing them, so I’m gonna make one big mish mash of a post.

Let’s hit the highlights.

My body quite literally feels like this image, and around it is nothing. Pure void.

The past week and a half or so, my third eye has been opening about 8-10 times per day, minimum. I’ve been seeing how to bring heaven down to earth, among other things. Many projects and people have been drawing into my life.

Right now as I write this I feel the back of my third eye opening. This is new.

Various chakras light up throughout the day. Usually the heart. Sometimes the solar plexus. Sometimes sacral, root, crown. A lot of heart and a lot of third eye. Not so much throat.

At times it feels like this body is being breathed with energy, particularly when I go into intense surrender. The energy pulses in and out in waves, releasing repressed sadness as tears.

It’s 9/9/9. I’m watching the movie “The Nines” after Jonas’ recommendation on facebook. Perfect recommendation. Thank you Jonas. My life is a lot like this in many ways.

I literally feel like I’m in a dream world. Everything I see is no more real than my night dreams, visualizations, or day dreams. For real…

One of my first youtube videos was about the collapse of space and recognizing that everything is here. Space is something I haven’t experienced for months now. I got how everything was Here, but I couldn’t quite grasp how everything is Now. I see this now and have lost my experience of time altogether. 5 minutes feels identical to 5 hours. Identical. For the past 4-5 days or so, I’ve discovered that I no longer experience time. It’s very natural actually, as if time is just another layer of illusion on top of Reality. It doesn’t feel like anything important is lacking, any more than how you’d feel something important (the experience of time) is lacking when you’re doing something you love and time flies. In awareness, there is no time. This is something I’d like to go into more depth on later.

Things I think about keep manifesting. It’s getting pretty ridiculous. Not only has synchronicity been cranked way up lately, but manifestations are much more vivid and powerful. Manifestation literally doesn’t take time. As time collapses, manifestation happens much more quickly.

It feels like I’m being given much more power in this dream world. Before I could tell myself that maybe I wasn’t actually creating everything in my reality. Now it’s practically impossible to buy that thought. The buffer or delay between thought energy arising and resultant manifestation is obvious.

People talk about how what you think about you bring about or how the world is your mirror. This is all so obvious. It’s all ONE. Of COURSE this happens! Your energy manifests in the world because there is nothing BUT your energy. Thus there is no other possibility!

It’s literally impossible for anything to go wrong. There are no mistakes. There are no accidents. Everything is divinely guided, beautifully orchestrated. Seeing that nothing can go wrong, guilt and shame drop away, as does the need to apologize. All of those presume that something can go wrong. This is not true. From the perspective of ego, sure. From the perspective of This, not at all. Whether or not what happens happens in the highest good, ahhh, now that’s another question. Everything is intentional, but not necessarily intended in alignment with the highest good.

What is Here is not just a living manifestation of the Divine. What is Here is also God Unmanifest. Some call this Source. Both are Here as One, yet what you see in the domain of the physical, not just “me” but throughout the totality of the Universe is what I AM in living manifestation.

Deeper and deeper, it’s like more surrender, sitting back as awareness and allowing what is to be.

It’s not all comfortable, really. It’s not superbliss or ecstasy or anything. It feels more like a continual purging of toxicity, as if this body and nervous system are being stepped up to a higher level.

There are breaks, pauses. This all happens in waves. In sections. Bit by bit. It’s somewhat cyclical. Sometimes I feel nothing. Something it’s very intense. Even during the intense moments it cycles in intensity.

There’s really nothing to do but sit back as awareness and allow this energy to do what it may, to be, to allow, to witness this change from the vantagepoint of the unchanging.

Ohmmm…