Recently I’d posted about some repressed sadness that had been rising up to the surface within me to finally be released.
Last week I decided to simply quit spinning it around in my mind and emotional center and to simply go within and meditate. In meditation, I did a few main things:
The key is not to try and fix ANYTHING, but to literally sit as the Self (conscious awareness itself), and allow everything else to fall away by offering it no resistance.
This may sound like it’s not accomplishing anything, as if no problems are being adequately dealt with, but believe me, this will impact you on an entirely different level…
There’s this idea that surrender means giving up, waving a white flag, and proclaiming our own weakness and sense of inability to accomplish our goals. This is NOT what is meant here. By surrender, I am simply saying to fully allow things to be the way they are and to let go of resistance. Be fully open without closing down.
After maybe 20-25 minutes of sitting in meditation, something amazing opened up and I realized a deeper part of my being, of who I truly am.
Beneath this idea of a little “me” and all the emotions and thoughts and stories it conjures up, there’s this infinitely more amazing world.
Underneath everything we experience is this infinitely deep sense of Peace. This peace extends infinitely far down into the nothingness. It is so unimaginably deep and is completely unshakable, beyond any level of peace experiencable in this world because it is truly beyond this world. It is sublime. It is the peace of God.
Resting on top of peace is Love. This Love is infinitely vast and knows no bounds. It is like opening your heart WIIIIIDE open, stretching your arms open to warmly welcome the world, feeling your cheeks stretch as you smile, noticing your eyes crinkle with your natural smile… it’s this infinitely expansive capacity for unconditional love beyond all measure.
This Love is totally free to be, to express itself as it is. Underneath this energetic gusher of radiant love and divine bliss is the security, the safety, and the support of infinite peace. This love knows no fear for its roots extend down into infinite peace, a peace to which there is no opposite.
Now sitting on top of this infinitely vast ocean of love and this infinitely deep core of peace, there is the separate self and all the thoughts and emotions associated with it. It is loud and noisy and shiny and bright and attracts a lot of attention to itself like a rambunctious little toddler. In the same way that a loud crash behind you or the sharp impact of a hammer hitting your toe focuses all your attention to itself, the ego’s antics focuses your attention to itself as well. It’s like this teeny tiny swirl of energy sitting on top of this infinitely vast peace and love.
We spend so much time focusing on our separate selves, on our problems, how to fix and deal with our problems, and all this “me” stuff that we miss the vastness of the silence below that is always there.
In order to see it, we simply need to withdraw awareness from the mind and emotions and bring awareness to awareness itself while surrendering away all else. Abide in the silent witness. Be still and know.
This experience, if we were to try and visualize it, would look something like this:
Enjoy my wonderful artistic sketch!
So through surrender, we relinquish all control. We let go of all energies of resistance, of manipulation, of trying to control reality in any way whatsoever.
Instead of trying to control the river of life, we let go altogether.
What spontaneously arises within this space is the realization that you ARE Creation itself!
That’s right, you ARE the very flow of life! You ARE life itself expanding outward and rolling through itself. Instead of trying to be a separate “me” controlling the river, you become the river itself!
Your true nature is the very unfoldment of Creation, an unfoldment which happens naturally, effortlessly, synchronistically, magically, perfectly, automatically, and spontaneously.
Rather than feeling like a defeated weakling, through true surrender you come to realize your true nature as the fullness of life itself, the very Source of all of Creation and being in THAT space is… WOW…
Abraham often talks about “following your bliss” as a way to come to know more and more of yourself, as a method of determining which thoughts to think and which actions to take in physical reality, as discussed previously.
It’s almost like when you reach beyond the separate self, you are reaching through the “me” into a completely new space, the very source of Love itself, a source which is always present and is actually who you are. You are this Source.
Following your bliss is a way for the physical you in the Manifest to connect to the non-physical you in the Unmanifest that you desire to be here in the Manifest.
The bridge which links the Manifest to the Unmanifest is Bliss. Now this experience of bliss isn’t just a cookie that we’re given to signify that we’re on the right track. No no, this bliss literally IS us!! So in essence, we are using ourselves to connect ourselves to ourselves. How cool is that!?
It is ALL us!