Energetic and Emotional Detoxing

When our bodies get sick, perhaps we catch a cold, get the flu, or run a fever, what are some of the symptoms? Runny nose, high temperature, etc. These symptoms are not actually a problem, as uncomfortable as they may be. They are the body’s way of ridding itself of the crud. It’s part of a sort of detoxification purging process. It’s not comfortable. It’s not pleasant. But it is necessary to release the previously collected junk.

Trying to stop the symptoms actually inhibits the healing. Allowing them to do what they need to do allows for the greatest possible speed in flushing through and out of your system.

Similarly, when you stop eating a familiar food or drinking a familiar drink, the body may crave that food or drink for a little while and you may experience a sense of withdrawl, a sense that something that used to be a part of “your energy” is now missing. It feels like something is lacking, in a sense, and we all know how “off” the feeling of lack can be.

It seems that we can go through the same sort of thing emotional, mentally, physically, spiritually, and energetically.

One thing I’m noticing now is that I’m energetically detoxing within and without.

Within, there’s a lot of negative emotional energy that’s arising. To be honest, I’m not in the greatest of moods and I’m not all that pleasant to be around right now. I actually avoid socializing and being around people right now. It doesn’t feel like what my energy needs. There’s lots of painbody stuff coming up to be made aware of and flushed out.

Without, I’m getting rid of some people in my life. I’ve been pretty open with who I hang out with in real life, as well as who I hang out with on facebook and twitter. There’s this idea I’ve held that since everything is love and light, everything’s okay. All is well. This is true and yet nevertheless, I am finding toxic and draining people in my environment. People who cling, complain, argue, and otherwise bring down the overall vibe, you’re gone. It’s nothing personal. It doesn’t mean I stop loving you. It’s simply setting boundaries and saying no, this energy is no longer welcome as a manifest energy in my presence. I choose to be a manifestation of love and light, as purely as possible. Everything may be love and light, yes, but in terms of physical reality, some manifestations are more purely and clearly expressions of Source than others. Anything inside of me or outside of me that is not a match to the purity of essence, it’s time to let that go. It is necessary in order for me to continue progressing. I can’t hold onto the lower rungs of the ladder anymore, trying to pull them up as I ascend.

There was some energy of “If I let these suffering people into my life, hopefully I can uplift them and be a positive influence in their lives.” It was somewhat of wanting to be a savior. It’s fine to serve and uplift, certainly, but not at the cost of my own well-being. If I’m drained, I can be of service neither to you nor myself.

With all this is going on, I feel parts of my body heating up, as if the kundalini is pushing its way up my spine, hitting a block in a particular chakra, and setting the chakra on fire. It’s like kundalini burns through this energetic presence, torching any resistance that gets in its way. It’s certainly not the most pleasant experience. It is ultimately a movement towards greater expressions of love and freedom, yes, but the roasting of old energy in the process can make one feel pretty insane, especially when it’s resisted and/or judged. Like what in the world is going on with me? This is so not who I know myself to be.

Surrender Surrender Surrender. Forgive. Allow. Let go. Aim for the Love, do your best, and just let go altogether, honoring your humanity as you stumble along the way. Like any marksman, sometimes we hit the mark better than otherwise. Learn from your mistakes, reload, aim, and fire again, hoping to get closer to the mark this next go around. Such is life.

The whole thing about being a loving person… it doesn’t seem like it’s somewhere we finally arrive and then we’re set for life. Like we do something and finally get a medal with “loving person” written on it. It’s more of a way of life, a continued way of being in the world, the sea in which we swim. It’s not about finally getting there and being done with it, but being there and remaining there as you do whatever it is that you do.