Driving Free of Beliefs

God how I love this ego dissolution.

Tonight I’m going to share yet another personal experience. This isn’t meant to be seen as a goal to shoot for, something to desire, something to achieve, or something to duplicate. The experiences I have will be similar yet different to yours. What you are about to read is simply the natural consequence of spiritual work.

Tonight I was driving my brother and his girlfriend down to the airport. They’re going up to visit her family for the holidays.

Perfect Peace

While driving, it was noticed that there was a deep sense of inner peace present. Cars would quickly change lanes at the last minute and cut me off, yet there was no reaction in this body whatsoever. No thoughts arose, the heart didn’t skip a beat, breathing didn’t change. The body simply kept driving naturally, peacefully, effortlessly.

Curious, the mind inquired as to why this peace was so unshakable.

There was the realization that no beliefs were being believed in. Nothing was better than anything else. With this cessation of internal conflict, a deep sense of inner peace revealed itself and began expressing itself as outer peace.

Nothing in the world has any control over this peace. In fact, that idea is simply absurd, because the peace arises due to not believing any thought in the first place.

Awakening Gets Ready

In addition to the dropping of the veil, there also seems to be some sort of leading-up-to experience. It’s like while you don’t actually see everything as the same one thing, nothing is taken to be separate from anything else. It’s almost the same thing as awakening, but not quite there. It’s this inner knowingness that opens up and you see with new eyes. When this realization started to arise again, the mouth smiled, and the body acknowledged the presence of Self. The illusion begins to drop away.

Musical Synchronicity

Something that seems to be very common in my own experience is musical synchronicity. The radio will play and the lyrics in the songs will be describing exactly what’s being experienced. This has happened sooo many times now. It’s simply something that, at this point, is relaxed into and enjoyed for what it is. It’s like this integrated, unified dance of Oneness. Actually, that’s what Life itself is, speaking of which…

Kundalini

Continuing to naturally be in this state of let go, suddenly this intense surge of radiant energy shot up the spine. There are no words to describe this experience. Perhaps the words exquisite, supremely magnificent, and sublime point to it somewhat.

The whole body relaxed into this feeling. There was a thought, “Perhaps I should pull over instead of continuing to drive.”

Again the thought was not believed in and a non-verbal knowingness arose: “You are safe. You are being supported by God’s Love.”

So the body let go of trying to control the car and trusted this sense of safety. In the same way that the body is being breathed, it was now also being driven. There was no driver. There was simply the guidance of God.

Letting go and allowing the body to mysteriously be driven, another tingly wave of kundalini shot up through the body, concentrating near the spine yet still radiating away towards the sides and front of the body.

It’s All Good

This mind, the curious little guy that it is, continued to inquire as to what was going on.

It was realized that nothing was better than anything else. It was all equally loved, unconditionally accepted exactly as it is.

The question arose, “Is love better than fear?”

The answer was no. It’s all equal. It’s all equally worthy and loved. There is nothing better than anything else.

What a wonderful being place.

The End of Seeking

Another question arose, “Is it better to be enlightened or unenlightened?”

The answer was that they’re both equally okay and just as perfect. With this realization, the body laughed and the seeking dropped away. Why on earth would you seek something if where you are is totally perfect and completely and 100% divine just the way it is. There’s no longer an inner striving or seeking for anything outside of the experience in this moment. No more seeking enlightenment. You realize that you already are the perfection that would otherwise be sought.

Contraction Into the self

Around this time, it felt like suddenly the mind grabbed hold of some belief unconsciously because suddenly there was a contraction of self. All of the sudden a “me” appeared from literally out of nowhere. There felt this sudden sense of centeredness, as if “I” somehow existed over here, separate and distinct from something else over there. It was a strange sensation.

This felt very heavy and unnatural, like something was off.

Yet still knowing that this space is just as okay as any other space, it was immediately accepted for what it was and the sense of let go arose again.

Amusingly, the sense of self began to dissolve and the sense of location was again lost. There was now only this spacious awareness that was witnessing what is. No more belief being added to anything.

Ah, what a liberating state!

Being With Family

When I got home, this beingness came and sat down with my mom and this experience was shared.

She asked how it was possible that love could be just as good as fear.

I explained that it’s all equally good when beliefs are no longer bought into. It’s not something that’s really understandable by the mind, which is what’s so great about it. You don’t have to believe it. In fact, it’s by not believing it that you get it. Paradoxical, sure, but that’s been the experience here.

See, it’s all Love. Even fear itself is Love, expressing itself as fear. Everything in the universe is God, expressing itself as this or that. Nothing can be better or worse than itself, for it’s all the same One thing.

Thus Love can’t be better or worse than fear because it’s ALL Love.

My mom remarked that I looked like I had been gassed by the dentist. This body was so relaxed and blissfully at peace. Everything is perfect as it is. There’s no need to do anything and so there’s the freedom to truly be or do anything. Everything you are and everything you do, it’s all you. It’s all an expression of you. It’s all good. It’s all perfect. It’s all divine. You are it all.