So people say things like “The Future is Now” or “The Past and Future are Illusions” or “The Now Moment is the only moment that exists.” And yet this can still seem kinda out there, y’know? It doesn’t really make sense. While we may say those things and hear others say it, it may not fully resonate with the very core of our being, in every fiber of our body. There may still be an element of “I understand that you’re saying that everything exists now, but I’m still experiencing past and future!”

Instead of trying to see timelessness from the perspective of time, let’s see how timelessness sees time. Let’s see if we can bring some clarity to the idea that “Everything Exists Now.”

Okay so.. everything exists now, yes, but that doesn’t mean we’re going to experience everything simultaneously RIGHT NOW.  That would be overwhelming! Was there ever a time in your life where it felt like too much was going on and you wanted to just run away and escape the madness? There’s really only so much that we can handle all at once, practically speaking.

If were to experience the hunger of every starving child that’s ever lived, the extreme ecstasy of every being in all universes throughout all times, every emotion every person has ever experienced in every life they’ve ever experienced, quite honestly I think we’d explode.

Limiting the Totality

So, every experience is available Now. All potentials exist literally literally literally right here right now. Every manifest reality is like an individual string on a guitar. Strum a different string and you get a different note, a different sound, a different reality. All strings exist right here. The plucking of them is (haha) right at our fingertips!

Scientists did a study and I forget the exact numbers so I’m going go totally make them up for the sake of this example. Basically they found that there are like 2,000,000 signals that our brains receive as input in every moment. Sound, color, texture, shape, thought, heartbeat, thought, the light in the distance, the faint hum of the air conditioner or computer, the feeling of your clothing against your back… lots and lots and lots of signals, but because it’d be too much to experience all at once and it’d be hard to really savor any particular experience if we were consciously aware of everything all at once, our brains are designed to limit the totality. This limitation isn’t bad. It isn’t wrong. It isn’t a mistake. It’s just something that gives us a discreet experience. How could you really enjoy your favorite food if you were simultaneously experiencing every other experience of your life!?

Time is another such limitation that the mind places upon itself… but it doesn’t have to.

Expanding Beyond Limitation

You see, all possibilities and all experiences exist right now, but we create for ourselves a sort of filter in order to experience one facet of the totality at a time.

As awareness expands beyond the limitations of space and time, there is the possibility to experience multiple spaces or times at once, kinda like we have the ability to experience one hand at a time or both hands simultaneously.

You may have heard stories of masters who were able to be in two places at once, called bilocation, or psychics who can “see into the future” or access akashic records and see “what happened in the past.”

All that is really happening is people are not imposing upon their own consciousness the typical limitations of time and space and so the natural expanded awareness experiences are possible. All past and future is available now and that’s why we can access it. All locations exist right here and that’s why things like teleportation and bilocation are possible.

Yes everything exists here. Yes everything exists now. But that doesn’t mean we’re going to experience it all at once, even though it’s all experienced in the Now.

All In The Now, but not Right Now

Have you noticed that there is only really ever one moment that we actually experience “in real life”? This one moment is called NOW. What we’re experiencing is happening NOW. What happened in the past, we experienced it in the NOW. What will happen in the future, it will arise in the NOW.

The illusion is that there are many individual moments of time, and we travel from one moment to the next, but that’s just part of the limitation imposed by the veil of separation. We don’t actually go from one now moment to the next. It doesn’t actually work that way although it may certainly be experienced that way from behind the veil. Certainly.

There is only one timeless moment, and all that arises can only arise NOW. There is literally no other possibility.

Manifesting In the Future

There’s a reason that people who teach affirmations and who understand the nature of creation talk about visualizing things as already being manifested, as already existing. The reason is that this is actually in alignment with how things actually are.

In fact the fastest way to manifest things “in the future” is to activate that energy NOW by seeing it as already existing NOW, in the only place it can ever exist.

In our imaginations, in our minds, in made-up fantasy-land we experience past and future, but even those experiences can only ever arise in the NOW. Have you ever had an experience that didn’t happen in this NOW moment?

Notice right now that this moment itself isn’t changing. It isn’t going anywhere. There is content and there is context. The content of the moment constantly changes, but there is an indescribable emptiness called This Moment in which all happenings arise, and this is more like the context. It’s like a spacious formless qualityless container that creates a space for all events to come and go. The content of the moment is born and dies, comes and goes, but the unchanging Now moment itself is simply here, unaffected by all that changes within it. It doesn’t exist in any location. In fact locations themselves are also something that are seen to arise In The Now.

Can you see that? Can you feel it?

It is readily available, immediately accessible. It is silence. It is awareness. It is emptiness. It is this moment.

What we call the future is simply another potential experience that may or may not arise in this Now moment, right here.

Sitting in your chair, notice that this whole world is passing before your eyes, but you, as conscious awareness, the witness, the observer, you aren’t going anywhere. This moment is here, and here we are watching the whole dance of creation happening right before our very eyes.

Even time itself, the rotating hands of the clock, the succession of digits on a watch, those too are appearances arising within this unchanging empty Now moment.

Coming Back to Now

The Now Moment is not just one particular set of events and circumstances. In fact no events or circumstances define it. It allows for all events and circumstances to come and go, without holding onto or pushing away any event. It is simply an empty space allowing for events to unfold. The entire spectrum of emotions and historical events… all happening right here, right now, in this one singular moment, even though we may not be experiencing the living expression of it as these words are being read.

What we call the passing of time, it’s happening right now, and yet we’re not going anywhere!

In this space, witnessing, awareness, emptiness, presence, being… these all come to the forefront. All the changing stuff is secondary, like a song you’re listening to or a show you’re watching. It’s all changing yet this whole time we are Here, we are Now. Awareness is Aware, unchanged and unaffected.

All possibilities are arising in this One Singular Moment, and yet we still experience them individually.

The experience of time passing alongside the unfoldment of events is optional. Without the guitar string called “the passing of time” plucked, events still happen, sure. Songs still play. Conversations still unfold. The sun still rises and sets. There’s simply no time that’s experienced for all that to happen. Just supreme presence in this moment as it all unfolds, going nowhere, taking no time, and all happening right here.

So how old are you?

Does your physical age define or limit you? Is there something more?

All my life people have told me stuff like “You’re so lucky to be getting this stuff so early in life.” or “You’re only XYZ years old? How do you know all this so young?”

To be honest, the age of this physical body has little do with the age that I feel I am, and this is probably true for many of us, isn’t it? Yet it’s what people see nonetheless.

How old are we? Let’s take a look at that question by diving deeper into both the seen and the unseen.

It seems that by starting with the physical age and exploring beyond, there’s many different ways we could look at age:

Physical Age

The first age is the most obvious and so we’ll start with it. It’s what people tend to think of when we talk about how old we are. It basically has to do with how many laps we’ve done around the sun. Physical age. We (our bodies) may be 10 years old, 20, 50, 100, whatever.

Yet is that a good determination of how old you feel?

“I feel like a kid again!” Have you ever said that when letting go and playing around, acting silly without a care in the world?

There’s older people who act like little kids and there’s younger people who look and act like older people. How old you feel seems to be more “in your head” than where your body is, so let’s look at that one next.

Mental/Emotional Age

Maturity-wise, how old do you feel? If you were to ask me, I can’t tell you how many times I’ve thought to myself that I feel like an older guy experiencing the body of a younger guy. Have you seen the movie 17 Again where the middle-aged guy gets warped back into the body he had back in high school and gets to sort of relive that time period in his life? It’s kinda like that.. sorta.

I’m currently 25, but in many ways I feel like I’m somewhere in my upper 30′s or 40′s. That’s the age range I find myself socializing with. That’s the age of people I often hike with, do spiritual group things with, and even the age of the women I’ve find myself attracting and being drawn to the past year or two. (This last one has been taking some getting used to and came with a lot of head scratching, without a doubt, but there’s been some really amazing lessons and experiences that have come from this.)

Anyways, in many ways (though of course there are several big exceptions exceptions to this), I feel like I’m older than my body is and I currently resonate most strongly energetically with people around 5-15 years older than me, for whatever reason.

So physically our body may be in one place, but mentally and emotionally we may be experiencing something else entirely, and this experience can often feel more real than wherever our body happens to apparently be.

This also brings to mind kids with mental retardation whose bodies age but mentally they remain in the mindset of a little kid. Mentally and physically we may be in two different places.

Now beyond your physical age or your mental age, there seems to be another sort of measurement of maturity. We can call it spiritual maturity or the depth/age of your soul.

The Age of Your Soul

You know how people use the terms “young soul” or “old soul?” While technically that may be a bit of a misnomer because souls are ageless, we can still use those terms when we talk about how conscious someone is, how far along the karmic ladder/wheel they are, if they live a superficial life or if something deeper drives them, how far beyond the ego the person is gone, or whatever it is that we use to differentiate between newer souls and older souls. Sometimes it’s just more of an intuitive feeling, isn’t it?

With some people you can just look into their eyes and it feels like there’s an expansive ocean there. So deep and vast. There’s often an element of incredible peacefulness present or a radiant spark of light and joy in their eyes.

This age seems to be less tied to our physical age and more related to our emotional/mental age, but just because you’ve matured as a person and had many years of life experience doesn’t necessarily mean that you’ve developed spiritually, so I like to differentiate between spiritual age and emotional age. They seem to be somewhat distinct.

Timeless Eternal Being

This is where things get really interesting. When it is discovered that what wakes up from the experience of personhood is neither male nor female, neither old nor young, then there is the experience of discovering that who you truly are is not a man or a woman, nor are you in any way bound in time. Your age is not found in time for you are ageless, timeless, and eternal, all those mystical esoteric things we hear sages and gurus and scriptures talk about.

That which wakes up from time is not subject to time and does not pass through time. Time is seen to be an appearance that passes through this. It’s like recognizing your essence to be the white movie screen that the movie is projected upon. The screen is not subject to the images that flicker upon its screen. The images are but a fleeting appearance that show up against the backdrop of this expansive, empty, spacious presence.

When this is discovered to be what you are, at the indescribable substanceless core of your being, there isn’t the experience of being young or old, male or female. There is just presence, existence, life, being. At the same time, the body that arises within this may have a certain age and may have a certain balance of masculine and feminine energy. It’s just that none of this is identified with to be what I am.

These days I tend to experience moreso one or the other. Sometimes there is the experience of being someone (Ariel) experiencing time, and other times there is the experience of causeless uncreated emptiness and timelessness. I don’t know what degree this evolves into experiencing both time and timelessness simultaneously and perhaps that is a duality that still needs to be experientially resolved here , but the way it seems to be happening here is sometimes TIME is happening loud and clear and seems so obvious whereas in other times, TIMELESSNESS is right at the forefront, nowhere yet literally right here. There is also a sort of stabilization process that is occurring where the swings from experiential separation to experiential oneness are strangely starting to quiet down and there’s becoming less and less of a distinction between separateness and oneness, ironically enough. The experiences are starting to become secondary to this presence that is present during both separation and oneness.

In any event, when timelessness wakes up, there literally is no experience of time. None. Not at all. Sure the sun still rises and sets yes movement is still seen, but somehow the experience of the passing of time throughout the day is nowhere to be found. There is just movement and silence happening here. Everything is happening and nothing is happening. Not really sure why and I can’t fully explain it. Just reporting on what it’s like.

So when people say something like “How did you get this at such a young age,” It sometimes leaves me scratching my head, to be honest. What wakes up from the physical is the timeless, and that has nothing to do with the age of the body, young or old. Ramana woke up at 16. Adya’s first awakening was at 25. Sure the stereotypical enlightened master is an old dude with a long white beard, but that doesn’t mean that you have to wait ’till you get old to wake up. lol…

So How Old Are You?

In your experience, how old do you feel?

There is no right or wrong answer here.

The question can simply be used as a helpful indicator to recognize what is most apparent within awareness at this moment. The physical? The emotional? The soul? The timeless?

All just different ways of experiencing the same identical ONE.

Many different experiences, some with the experience of an experiencer, others with the experience of no experiencer…

Life is cool.

Scientists like to explore the idea of consciousness as if it’s something that a physical being has. You know, people have a consciousness and when hit in the head, can lose consciousness. Rocks don’t have a consciousness. They have a physical existence, but presumably no conscious awareness of their own existence. Pysicality is taken to be primary and consciousness is taken to be some sort of optional secondary manifestation that may or may not arise from physicality. What causes consciousness? Perhaps it’s a chemical reaction in the brain, a product of our biology… it’s somehow a functioning of physicality.

This is further evidenced by the fact that we can seemingly lose consciousness, and we even go unconscious when we sleep at night. Clearly our bodies still exist, and other people can confirm this for us, but we have no sense of self-awareness, and so it seems like physicality comes first, while consciousness comes second. If anything, the body, as temporary as it is, seems more continuous and experientially permanent than consciousness. From this perspective, it’s only natural that we perceive ourselves to be this physicalized being. At the same time, there’s “my” consciousness and “your” consciousness.

I’m sitting here reading through a copy of I Am That by Nisargadatta Maharaj and he just brought up something (Chapter 18) which shot right through the heart of a deep confusion and misunderstanding within me and triggered a big ‘aha’. In the book a questioner sits down with Nisargadatta and brings up the points and enters into a dialogue about this subject.

Memory and Consciousness

The conversation is lead to an exploration into the idea of memory.

Do we have any memory of what it’s like to be unconscious, such as the time we are in deep dreamless sleep at night? No. That’s not to say that consciousness wasn’t conscious at that time. We simply have no memory of being conscious or unconscious at that time. People can look at our bodies when we sleep and say that it is lying down, still, the eyes are closed, and the body is breathing, but that is only their experience of our body. That is not a pointer to what our conscious awareness itself is experiencing. Is it not totally possible that your experience of yourself can be vastly different from another person’s experience of you?

Yesterday during the day, for example, were you conscious? Were you aware of your own existence throughout the day? Most likely, yes.

However, today, do you remember every moment of being conscious? Probably not.

Now just because you can’t remember every instance of being conscious, does that prove that you weren’t conscious then?

Of course not. You know that you were conscious. You just don’t remember it now. Same thing here in those times when we were seemingly unconscious.

Timeless Consciousness and Time-bound Imagination

Upon this recognition, it suddenly dawned on me that I have no idea whether or not consciousness actually stops being conscious in those times when I am asleep or unconscious. Sure I don’t remember experiencing those periods of time, but I can’t say for sure whether or not consciousness was unconscious.

Seeing this, I paused for a time of quiet meditation, open to exploring the relationship between consciousness and memory. Here is what suddenly came forth from the silence:

Consciousness only has the capacity to be conscious right now. Consciousness is only capable of being conscious of the present moment and the content within it. Consciousness can not extend itself into the past or future, for those do not actually exist and thus consciousness can not go there.

However, within consciousness exists both memory and imagination, and the visual stories that they create. Past and future are like mental visions that always arise only in the present moment. Have you noticed how every time you witness your mind’s memories or visualizations of past and future, consciousness is conscious of those mental movies in the present moment? Consciousness is conscious of that which arises now, including stories of past and future, both of which can only arise in the present moment.

The domain of consciousness is the present moment. The domain of imagination is time and space. “Once upon a time, in a land far far away…”

Consciousness is clearly Here, not in any particular location. Location-wise, it actually exists nowhere and is therefore present everywhere. Within the nowhere’ness of consciousness, an infinitely vast universe springs forth, which actually expands infinitely far out through nowhere, paradoxically enough. It’s like looking at a movie screen. You can travel vast distances when watching the movie, but the screen itself doesn’t go anywhere. You can even wear 3D goggles and watch the movie Avatar, but despite appearances, there’s no animals coming towards you from Pandora and you don’t actually go “in” to the colorful world you see on screen, although it may certainly look and feel that way. Ultimately, you’re not going anywhere and there is no real depth to the visual images. There is only the appearance of depth and 3 dimensions upon a flat 2 dimensional screen.

Memory

So coming back to the idea of memory, memory is something that is written to or not. Many things have happened to us that we don’t remember, but that doesn’t mean that they didn’t happen. When we look to past or future, all we can see is what can be accessed in our memory (past) or created by the imagination (future). Neither of the two are indicative of the fullness of what happened or what can or will happen. They are inherently limited tools and attempting to identify reality or truth from either of those two is.. well.. it’s not gonna work, y’know?

Eternity

So, coming back to the awareness of awareness, to being conscious of consciousness, have you ever experienced a moment, consciously, where consciousness wasn’t conscious? I know there may be gaps in your experience, like when you get knocked out or go to sleep at night, and that’s okay, but you yourself as consciousness, has there ever been experience without consciousness?

Can we say for sure that just because we don’t remember an experience, it didn’t happen?

At the same time, can we be absolutely certain that just because we can’t remember what happened before we were born, we didn’t exist?

Is it possible that consciousness itself is eternal, and it is the body/mind/memory thingy that changes, that comes and goes, and is just a fleeting movie that is shown upon the unchanging screen of consciousness?

Spending time with the unchanging screen of consciousness itself, rather than focusing upon the images that temporarily flicker on screen… desires, thoughts, understandings, misunderstandings, questions, answers, people, ideas, food, clouds… all this stuff that comes and goes, what happens when we fall back and rest as conscious awareness itself?

Consciousness, this eternal presence, what is it like to rest in eternity, not bound in time? What is it like to live as awareness itself instead of the thought “I am this,” “I am that,” or even the thought, “I am awareness?” What is it like to simply rest as awareness itself, awareness that is effortlessly aware without any effort on our part?

Just consciousness conscious now…

Time. I don’t wanna get into the discussion about time, eternity, the illusion of past and future, and all that jazz. I’m just not feelin’ it right now. Instead I wanna address some direct and distinct shifts that are occurring, namely that time (among other things) is quite literally starting to break apart and fracture right before my very eyes.

It’s not just about the experience of timelessness or events seeming to either fly by or take forever, not just those internal personal experiences, but I’m also now beginning to see these internal things be reflected back to me in the world. Digital clocks are now sometimes literally beginning to skip, as in several minutes or hours at a time simply won’t exist for me even though there is still the continuing experience of life. Analog clocks (the ones with minute hands and hour hands) around me are slowing down and getting off sync with other sources of time, and it’s not just old clocks and dying batteries…

It’s quite literally as if certain parts of life literally do not exist for me.

To be honest, there’s a number of things I’ve held myself back from talking about here, either because I wanted to keep this blog focused specifically on awakening or because some of the topics are a little too *out there*… But you know what? Let’s roll with it and see where this takes us, especially now that a bunch of you are reporting to have similar experiences anyways…

Telepathy and Empathy

My latent telepathic abilities have started awakening and I’ve noticed that my inner guidance is often operating in harmony with other people wanting to tell me something. As mentioned yesterday, it’s like being part of a flock of birds, both individual and simultaneously unified, where multiple people are cooperative components to a greater whole. We can call it co-creating the experience of intuitive communication. It’s as if two of us are somehow on the same frequency and can pick up on one another’s thoughts, feelings, intentions, and desires.

This seems to be correlating to a sudden increase in empathy (and actually sympathy at times) and intuitive strength that has occurred within the last two weeks. I now feel people much more strongly and even cry and laugh quite often for no logical reason, both in meditation when releasing my own inner stuff as well as when feeling other people’s emotions. Heck, I’ve been crying when watching American Idol auditions these past few weeks, much to my surprise! It seems to occur particularly often when I observe people who really really really want to make it to Hollywood. It’s like I can connect to them and suddenly feel all their emotion come pouring through me.

Again, developing the ability to surrender and maintain a sense of transparency so that the energy flows through me without me absorbing it personally, this is a really important skill. I often prefer this to simply closing down my heart and blocking out other people’s energies, though that certainly has its place in terms of learning to moderate the flow of energy and not take in more than you can handle.

As an aside, long distance wireless communication has always fascinated me. When I was younger I built WiFi antennas, spent time with friends who were amateur radio operators, studied electromagnetics and lasers in college where I learned about RF communication (like radio and TV) as well as optical communication through fiber optic cables, spent time ogling satellites and satellite dishes, and studied up on the basics of quantum teleportation-based communication. This blossoming of interest in telepathic communication is not about the desire for siddhis and supernatural abilities, but a natural progression of and development of an lifelong passion of mine.

Beyond Earth

I’ve also started getting flashes of not only past lives on earth, but past lives elsewhere in the cosmos. Ever since I was a little kid, looking up into the stars feels somehow like being home. Recognizing this and seeing my own galactic history makes it much easier to accept freely for myself many of the extraterrestrial beings who are channeling down to earth at this time. (The Essassani, Arcturians, and Pleiadians are among my favorites that I have come across thus far.) Being able to accept this and release so much internal resistance and denail has been a HUGE relief for me, like a tremendous weight lifted off my shoulders.

One quick point about past lives: When I look back I find that they’re not really past lives. They’re more like multiple simultaneously occurring incarnations. Since I’m now finding my consciousness starting to periodically disconnect from the apparent stream of linear earth time (or more accurately consciousness ceasing to create the experience of time within itself), there have been some discontinuous breaks that have been experienced as mentioned previously. It’s not under my deliberate conscious control. It’s like something that just seems to happen as I fully surrender to the moment. It almost feels like I’m gradually entering the world of time travel and have yet to find the steering wheel or the panel that allows me to pick a time and place to jump to. Either way, looks like I’ve got both a flux capacitor and 1.21 gigawatts at my disposal.

There have also been some conscious connections strengthening with archangels, in particular Archangel Michael. I don’t have a two-way verbal dialog happening with him yet, but his presence is quite clear and visceral to me. His energy I can actually feel quite distinctly, as if he’s standing behind me like the picture above illustrates. (My head even has developed a natural tendency to lean back, again just like that picture above, ironically enough…) Every being, whether collective or individual, seems to have uniquely different energies. This applies whether we’re talking about spirit guides, angels or archangels, extraterrestrials, or even your very own light within. Each has a unique vibrational feeling signature, much like different notes in a song.

This universe is far more expansive than we’ve been taught in school. As nontraditional and even woowoo as some of this may seem, right or wrong it’s something I just have to let go and allow to arise through me. Sometimes reality is stranger than fiction…

Happy New Years 2010!

So here we are, enjoying yet another expression of the singular eternal NOW, calling it 2010 as we play the game called linear time.

1/1/10. A number of people have been talking about energy gateways opening up leading up to 2012. We had 9/9/09 and a number of other numerically significant dates. Great, cool. Either way, I didn’t see too much noticeable change in my life in my own direct experience. It’s certainly possible that something’s happening behind the scenes, underneath the threshold of my conscious awareness, but there hasn’t been much clear change in my experience. The start of 2010 seems to be different though…

Last night I was laying in bed (after the ball drop) and right as I was getting close to the point where my mind was I was about to fall asleep as my mind was naturally relaxing, this uniquely catching image popped into awareness.

As the earth continued to rotate about its axis, I could actually see this sea of yellow-white light/love washing over the surface of the earth, bathing it in yet a higher level of bright love and light. (The energy of love looks like light, but it’s just as much love. Two words for one energy.) As the earth made its transition into the new year, we actually got some sort of energetic upgrade on mother earth, our beloved Gaia. I whipped up an image in photoshop to show you what it looked like, though the threshold dividing line was a little more nebulous than in this pic:

In the practical living-life sense, I’ve felt an increased level of lightness, joy, well-being, and ease. Feels like ego stuff is sticking less and it’s less of a controlling influence in my life, but maybe that’s just me. Out of curiosity, what (if anything) have you guys noticed with the start of this new year?

Have you had any personal shifts with the start of the new years? For example, my main intention/resolution for the new years is to give up my ego games of sadness, resistance, believing the LoA doesn’t fully work for me, and generally resisting life and being unhappy with what is. To use some Abraham-Hicks lingo, it’s about simply being in the vortex as often as possible, allowing myself to be happy in this moment for its own sake, allowing myself to enjoy what IS in this moment, including the moment itself. Basically just letting go of the struggling and suffering. Happiness and Joy rocks!!

So today is 11-11 and there’s been lots of chatter lately about ascension, the relevance of this date in relationship to 2012, and so on.

For example, I’ve read things like this regarding the date:

This Wednesday, November 11, 2009 11:11:11 The number eleven is a gateway: a parallel time construct that allows you to leave the confines of this matrix reality, absorb, and experience new energy and information from other dimensions. Elevens are keys that can unlock subconscious thought structures and free you from their dictating confining powers.

Great. Cool. So I decided it would be cool to meditate through the transition in time, so I sat down a little bit before 11:11 am, closed my eyes, and allowed whatever was going to happen to happen. Basically surrendering control and observing whatever arises, having no clue what *should* happen, if anything at all.

What I noticed in myself during the transition was a tremendous sense of lightness, as if clamps of weight had been released and I felt much lighter, as if the shackles of some old world no longer tied me down and kept me bound to that way of being. I felt free, able to move in any direction easily without those old and familiar limitations. It was a lot like taking off a weight vest and losing a tremendous sense of density and physicality.

What are you guys experiencing today? Any changes or shifts?

If you have any videos or information regarding this 11-11 stuff, feel free to share that information down in the comments area!

Cheers to our waking journey! Weee!!

Okay, so I feel like I’m going a little crazy now.

Some of what I’m gonna write about here I’ve written posts about but didn’t feel like publishing them, so I’m gonna make one big mish mash of a post.

Let’s hit the highlights.

My body quite literally feels like this image, and around it is nothing. Pure void.

The past week and a half or so, my third eye has been opening about 8-10 times per day, minimum. I’ve been seeing how to bring heaven down to earth, among other things. Many projects and people have been drawing into my life.

Right now as I write this I feel the back of my third eye opening. This is new.

Various chakras light up throughout the day. Usually the heart. Sometimes the solar plexus. Sometimes sacral, root, crown. A lot of heart and a lot of third eye. Not so much throat.

At times it feels like this body is being breathed with energy, particularly when I go into intense surrender. The energy pulses in and out in waves, releasing repressed sadness as tears.

It’s 9/9/9. I’m watching the movie “The Nines” after Jonas’ recommendation on facebook. Perfect recommendation. Thank you Jonas. My life is a lot like this in many ways.

I literally feel like I’m in a dream world. Everything I see is no more real than my night dreams, visualizations, or day dreams. For real…

One of my first youtube videos was about the collapse of space and recognizing that everything is here. Space is something I haven’t experienced for months now. I got how everything was Here, but I couldn’t quite grasp how everything is Now. I see this now and have lost my experience of time altogether. 5 minutes feels identical to 5 hours. Identical. For the past 4-5 days or so, I’ve discovered that I no longer experience time. It’s very natural actually, as if time is just another layer of illusion on top of Reality. It doesn’t feel like anything important is lacking, any more than how you’d feel something important (the experience of time) is lacking when you’re doing something you love and time flies. In awareness, there is no time. This is something I’d like to go into more depth on later.

Things I think about keep manifesting. It’s getting pretty ridiculous. Not only has synchronicity been cranked way up lately, but manifestations are much more vivid and powerful. Manifestation literally doesn’t take time. As time collapses, manifestation happens much more quickly.

It feels like I’m being given much more power in this dream world. Before I could tell myself that maybe I wasn’t actually creating everything in my reality. Now it’s practically impossible to buy that thought. The buffer or delay between thought energy arising and resultant manifestation is obvious.

People talk about how what you think about you bring about or how the world is your mirror. This is all so obvious. It’s all ONE. Of COURSE this happens! Your energy manifests in the world because there is nothing BUT your energy. Thus there is no other possibility!

It’s literally impossible for anything to go wrong. There are no mistakes. There are no accidents. Everything is divinely guided, beautifully orchestrated. Seeing that nothing can go wrong, guilt and shame drop away, as does the need to apologize. All of those presume that something can go wrong. This is not true. From the perspective of ego, sure. From the perspective of This, not at all. Whether or not what happens happens in the highest good, ahhh, now that’s another question. Everything is intentional, but not necessarily intended in alignment with the highest good.

What is Here is not just a living manifestation of the Divine. What is Here is also God Unmanifest. Some call this Source. Both are Here as One, yet what you see in the domain of the physical, not just “me” but throughout the totality of the Universe is what I AM in living manifestation.

Deeper and deeper, it’s like more surrender, sitting back as awareness and allowing what is to be.

It’s not all comfortable, really. It’s not superbliss or ecstasy or anything. It feels more like a continual purging of toxicity, as if this body and nervous system are being stepped up to a higher level.

There are breaks, pauses. This all happens in waves. In sections. Bit by bit. It’s somewhat cyclical. Sometimes I feel nothing. Something it’s very intense. Even during the intense moments it cycles in intensity.

There’s really nothing to do but sit back as awareness and allow this energy to do what it may, to be, to allow, to witness this change from the vantagepoint of the unchanging.

Ohmmm…

Consider this: From the linear perspective of time, with your five senses you can not perceive what is actually arising in the present moment. It’s technically impossible.

Everything you’re seeing happened a fraction of a second ago or more. It takes time for light to travel from what you’re looking at to your eyes. Thus, you are not actually seeing the present, but the past. You’re seeing something as it existed some time ago.

When you look up in the sky at the sun, you’re not looking at where the sun is now, but where the sun was 8 minutes ago. When you look up at the stars at night, you’re not looking in the direction of where the stars are now (if they even still exist and haven’t exploded since), but where they were hundreds, thousands, or even millions of years ago!

The same applies for sound. It takes time for sound to travel through the air and vibrate your ear drums. So again, you are not perceiving the present, but the past.

What about taste and touch? Perhaps they’re different because in order to experience those senses, you have to be in physical contact with the object. Thus there’s no delay as the vibration travels through space to your body.

Well, it takes time for the nerve’s impulses to travel through your body to your brain so that they may be perceived by the mind. This process too takes time.

To recognize this more clearly, why is it that when you touch a hot stove, you almost instantly pull your hand back? That’s right. Reflexes. Your body knows to pull your hand away before the signal makes it up to your brain, is processed as pain and danger, and the brain then sends a signal back to your arm to pull your hand away. Thanks to our reflexes, physical responses can happen even before mental perception.

Perception takes time. What we perceive is actually the past. You can not perceive the present moment with your physical senses. It’s physically impossible.

Perceiving in Time and Space

With your senses, you’re clearly not perceiving the entire universe at once. It’s like you’re only perceiving a tiny fraction of all of time and space at a time.

What you perceive at any moment depends both on where you are and when you are there.

If you change when you are in a particular location or space, what you perceive in that space changes. You can’t just be in the right place, but you have to be at the right place at the right time.

Similarly, if you change where you are physically relative to any object, what you experience about that object at any point in time will be different. For example, if you’re far away from a loud noise, you’ll hear it later in time than if you were really close to it. Thus, when you experience something totally depends on where you are in space.

Time and space are inseparable. They truly depend on one another. This is why people call physical reality a time/space reality or refer to time more accurately as spacetime. You can’t have one without another.

What you are perceiving at any particular moment in time is not actually what is arising in the present, but your own version of the universe, depending on where in time and space you happen to exist at any moment. It’s almost like being in your own little world!

Thus, if you want to experience the Now as it is in its pure and undistorted essence, if you want to see Reality as it actually is, a deeper part of yourself must be awakened, a part of you that exists beyond time and space. It is what is Here and Now.

Awareness, Here and Now

As long as we approach the the Present moment through the content that arises in the present, we will always perceive the past. We won’t be experiencing the Now.

Even if we think about the future, we’re looking at a thought that arose in the past, but we’re looking at it now. The looking happens now. What we are looking at happened in the past.

Let me repeat this because this is so important.

The looking happens now.

What we are looking at happened in the past.

As long as we look to experiences, memories, or perceptions, we’re not seeing the Now itself, but rather the mind’s stuff that happened in the past. The mind exists in past and future, and yet awareness is seeing whatever it is seeing, right now.

The content was created in the past, but awareness is seeing it now.

Right now, Awareness is looking at these words, regardless of when they were typed or when they showed up on your computer screen.

Awareness is aware of this moment. There is a big difference between awareness which is aware, here and now, and the content and experiences that arise within awareness.

Awareness is present. Awareness is always present. It is impossible for awareness to not be present.

The only thing awareness can be aware of is what is, here and now.

It’s not something to think about. It’s not something to understand. Thinking and understanding are all more mind-stuff that arise within time, are subject to time, and exist simply as passing content within awareness.

All satori moments, glimpses into your true nature, sudden realizations, feelings of oneness or love.. they’re all experiences that arise within awareness. None of that is what you are. None of that is it.

Connecting with Who You Are

To connect with who and what you truly are,  just be.

Be still.

Rest as awareness.

It sounds utterly simple, and it really is.

Just rest as the timeless awareness that is here and now, for that is what you already are anyways.

By looking consciousness straight in the eye, it will come to know itself clearly.

This remembrance, this reconnection to the I Am that I Am, this is the foundation of awakening.

Consciousness is peering into this world, but it is not of this world.

Awareness is like this witnessing presence that is looking through this body/mind, like a watcher of a movie looks at the screen of a movie and is immersed in the sounds and colors.

But awareness is completely independent of the movie.

Rest as awareness.

There is nothing to understand. There is nothing to figure out. Just simply be. Be who you really are. Be still. Be.

There’s this sense of deep peace that arises, where it feels like nothing’s happening. Everything is still, completely and totally still.

This isn’t to say that the earth stops spinning, that time stops, and that life as we know it ceases to occur, but something deeper than that, somehow beyond it all.

It’s a sort of looking through the action and seeing the non-action, peering beyond the content of the moment and recognizing the emptiness of the moment itself.

Nothing is being created.

Nothing is happening.

Nothing is occuring.

This probably doesn’t make much sense to the mind, so let’s see if we can help it along here a bit.

Metaphysically Speaking

From a metaphysical perspective, we can say that all time is now and everything exists now, meaning that everything that could ever be created already has been created. It literally all exists already. Every single thing you can imagine has already been created. There’s nothing more to be done.

It’s not that more things are being created that weren’t there before, but simply that awareness is shifting its perspective to see another side of the totality.

Imagine a hologram for a moment. Every time you look at it from a different angle, it appears as if the hologram changes. Yet the hologram doesn’t change at all. YOU, the observer, change your perspective relative to the hologram, giving you a new view of it. The hologram doesn’t change at all, even though it looks like it does.

The world as we know it is very much like this. The world doesn’t change. YOU change. Awareness shifts perspective.

Since one’s true nature is simply awareness itself, when you change, the whole world you see changes as well.

When this sinks in, it becomes completely obvious why sayings such as “Be the change you wish to see in the world,” or “What you focus on expands,” or “When you change the way you look at things, the things you look at change,” and so on all fit into place. Things like the double-slit experiment become quite natural. It is awareness itself that is the key to creation. Awareness is really all there is, anyways,

We could say that there is an observer and something to be observed, subject and object, but eventually that duality, too, collapses into simply observation happening. Awareness being aware. But that’s a whole ‘nother topic.

Experientially Speaking

Moving from the metaphysical explanation to a more experiential description, it feels like an infinite peace, with no one to be peaceful. Just the presence of stillness and peace itself, with no other to disturb the peace. It’s not freedom despite all other things, but a seeing through all other things so that there is no longer anything to be free of, nor anyone to be free from something. Just freedom itself.

No one can be free. A “me” can’t be absolutely free, for there can always a be challenge to a “me.”

Nothing is happening, and yet everything is happening. All That Is is being All That Is. Everything is being.

It may sound paradoxical, but it’s really the only way to put the two together. Everything exists thanks to nothingness. The two are inseparable. Source and Manifestation are one.

The title of Adyashanti’s book Emptiness Dancing says it all.

The Moment Itself

When someone says to “be in the moment,” what do we usually do? We focus on the content of the moment. There’s whatever emotions are arising in the moment, the thoughts that arise now, the events that are occuring, breathing happening… that’s all the content of the moment.

What is it like to experience the moment itself? The context surrounding all content?

The obviousness that’s always here, but is so easily missed because the mind tends to go straight for the content instead.

The moment itself. What is that like? In your own experience? Don’t worry about trying to put it into words or be the narrator of your own experience for now.

Just for yourself, what does this moment feel like? Empty? Full? Busy? Still?

It’s interesting when past lives start to be remembered spontaneously.

It’s like consciousness can project itself into that life and experience it just as real as “this” life. My friend Davidya recently wrote a very fitting article on this topic which makes me laugh due to its alignment with my own experiences.

The dream world at night has the same level of (un)realness to any life, including this one.

All content is just an imaginative dream that arises within the context of awareness.

The I Am That I Am is everpresent throughout all space and time, here and now.

I Am infinite and eternal, able to call forth any aspect of myself for viewing and experience, as if the universes’ experiences were my own personal collection of movies.

I Am, here, living this human experience.

I am the watcher of the movies, not the character in the movies.

Yet the duality between the observer and the observed somehow are collapsing as well into simply just Isness.

There is the arising of Life as an expression of the I Am.

What is the I Am?

It is what I am. It is what You are. It is what All is.

There is only one true I that is. Pure beingness itself.

The I Am that you feel is the same exact I Am that I feel. That is the link that unites us.

You and I don’t have a life. You and I can’t lose our lives. We ARE Life itself.

There is One Life, flowing into and through itself. There is nothing but Life with which Life can interact with.

All mental ideas and things are but expressions of the One Life that is.

This lifetime you’re experiencing in this moment, any of your past lifetimes, the life experienced by other people, the lives lived by other conscious and unconscious beings… they are all equally dreams arising within consciousness.

You are the eternal undamageable Presence that is not subject to space and time nor anything that arises within it, the Presence that is in this world, but not of it.

I love me. I love you. I love life.

It is all One. Here and Now.

One Life, One Love, One Me, One You, One Us.