Beyond the Ferocity Within

This spiritual pathway can be very much like a roller coaster. There are highs and lows that happen against the backdrop of being, and they can be pretty intense. I often share some of my dark experiences here on this site. The past few days have been like that again. Big emotional upheaval, anger, rage, confusion, ego, and the fear of backsliding into unconsciousness. Y’know… that whole bit…

Funny to see the latest WINGS post be in alignment with what’s being experienced here. People talk about the mercury retrograde and whatnot. I have no idea what that stuff means, but it seems like a lot of that fits. Neat-o.

Anyways, regarding the dark stuff, one interesting to see is that it’s like a part of you burns up within. It’s like a mini-death, a release of old energy that is no longer you nor in harmony with your new vibration. We can think of it as an emotional storm, or a fire burning within. It feels like a part of you (quite literally) burns up in the process.

But what’s left after any big forest fire? Fresh, live, nutrient-rich soil. (The past few times I’ve written that line, I’ve “accidentally” typed the word “soul” instead of “soil.” hehe.) It’s a perfect place to start anew.

In this way, it’s like a sort of rebirth. Part of you literally dies and the part of you which can neither die nor be (re)born shines that much more clearly.

After the fire there’s a feeling of increased freedom, but cling not to this experience for it, like every other experience we can have, will pass. Enjoy it, but don’t get attached. There’ll probably be more storms to come. More darkness to face later. More inner nooks and crannies of fear to heal and transmute back into light.

The quotes from that video come from the book Oneness.

Also, this Adyashanti article helped me return back to the direct experience of who I truly am. Perhaps some of you will find them helpful as well.

In any event, hi.

It’s pretty nice to no longer feel like I have the IQ and clarity of a slug in the mud. It’s quite wonderful to feel open, relaxed, and free. Yes it is… It’s so.. natural.

What have you guys found to be helpful when you’re caught in the midst of the fire within? How do you relate to it? What do you find afterwards when the fire subsides?